its coming to quickly, i need a place to escape, all the thoughts are becoming into actions, the words are coming true, i realized this isn’t a dream, it’s reality. These past few days i’ve put a lot of thought but never could come up with the courage to actually put it into drive. There is so much more that i want but i am restricting myself, I need to let it all go and completely do me. I don’t need anyone there for me i have myself. All these guys are nothing, i don’t really depend on anyone anyway, i just wanted to find someone to love and care for and that could accept me along with my son but rushing to find it elsewhere doesn’t make it any better, it is just hurting the other person, what am i doing? this isn’t me.